You know, I spend most of my life listening to other peoples' problems and issues but when the time comes for someone to give a shit about what I want, it's too inconvenient for them. I getting very sick of this. Why do I need to adjust to their feelings when they don't even make an effort for mine? I am so angry right now it's unbelievable. I mean, I have been very happy for the past few days then suddenly I get a silent slap to the fucking face because, oh I don't know, I want compensation for being there for them 24/7 no matter what the time. Maybe I am wrong for wanting something for being nice but fuck, humanity is wrong!

The sad part is, I don't mind listening to peoples' problems because everyone needs someone to listen but then it all builds up in me and life just sucks. I want to just crawl into bed and wait until someone I genuinely enjoy being around comes to wake me up. I need to go for a drive and get the fuck out of here, away from the people, the awkward silences, and the idiotic illusion being perfectly fine. And another thing, why don't they tell me what's really on their mind? Seriously, I am not stupid. They tell me the overall idea of the problem but not the real thing and when I ask for the real answer, the typical response is, "Oh it's nothing." FUCK THAT IT'S NOTHING! If it was nothing, you wouldn't be sitting beside me, staring out into space, and chewing on any part of your body that gets close to your damn mouth. So many people do this same routine, it's exhausting.

Excuse me while I scream.